this overwhelming emptiness engulfs me. i can't tell anyone, it's so hard. i don't really want people to know how awful i'm feeling, if they could even begin to understand that is, and i certainly don't want them to understand. i'm probably going to drift away and they'll think i'm just another jerk but really, i just can't stay in this broken ol' city where everything is sugar coated to try not remind me of all the broken memories i'm surrounded by.