I have copious amounts of trauma to recover from, but the idea of the end result is really exciting. I know I'll be able to reach it, even if it takes time, but that's totally cool as well. I wish I had someone to hold me hand a little bit, but maybe it's better to do this alone because of how many times I've been let down. I wish I had better luck with people, or maybe I wish I was worth enough to be cared about just a teeny bit. Sigh.